In a slump

So lately I've been in a slump...I haven't been feeling 100%.
Today was just the icing on the cake. At it's only half over! I woke up around 4 with Mikey. I fed him and he started acting up again. He does this new thing where he'll drink about an ounce or two and then be very squirmy! I'll burp him and that will wake him up even more. This goes on for 8-10 ounces! So that takes about an hour. It's bad enough he's still waking up for a feeding, but now he's like up up. I put him down at around 5 and fell asleep. At 5:30 he started stirring again. I was not going to be getting up again. I went to get his music box--that was across the house on the porch--and on my way back, my dad said something to me. Technically, I wasn't awake, kinda like the walking dead at this point. He got mad that I didn't reply, but that early in the morning I don't care about much. Then I woke up at 7:30...tried to wake up Elijah but he wasn't hearing any of that. I probably should have just taken the day off. :( That would have been the smart thing to do.
Anyway, I finally got motivated to shower only to find that all of my stuff was missing. (I just got home from house-sitting yesterday and Sharon had all of her stuff all over, so my stuff just got plopped down in an empty spot.) So I showered anyway. When I came out, Sharon was waking up. I got Elijah up and was about to bathe him only to find that his stuff was missing too. Apparently when Sharon was cleaning up to pack, she misplaced it, and didn't really seem to care that it went missing. So my mom told me to use the Dove soap and I had to use my shampoo. Let me just tell you that Johnson's claim that they're tear-free...it's true! He got soap in his eyes while he was washing himself and then when I washed the shampoo out, he got shampoo in his eyes. So I've got this wriggly, screaming child in a tub, longing to get out and have his eyes stop burning...all before 8:30!
Then I got Mikey's breakfast together and got him up. I was trying to feed him but everything was distracting him...the tv, his brother, his grammy...it was a mess! So I'm already aggravated from my morning and now I get to struggle with a toddler to get dressed--he was still naked in the living room wearing his towel--and a baby to eat. I finally got everyone together and then it was finally my turn to get ready.
No wait, that's not true. I still had to get the kids' things together for school. I quick packed their bag and was about to get ready when my mom was telling me she had to leave. She was going to take Elijah, but he wanted to still hold Mikey. So I told him we'd ride in the stroller to school. He was game for that. Okay, everyone was settled and getting along...
I went out to get the stroller ready only to find that it was packed way up high in a pile of boxes on the porch. Scratch that idea. Luckily for me, Elijah was okay with walking. I was going to carry the baby, but found the baby stroller leaning on the railing. Also luckily for me, school isn't too far away.
I finally got them off to school and me to work only to find the organ tuner was waiting patiently for me to unlock the church. OOPS! Totally forgot about that scheduled visit. :)
Sigh...so here I am at 12:50 and not feeling any better about my day.
Michael called me (apparently a few times while I was house-sitting) only to tell me he was in the hospital. Okay, and you're telling me, why?? Nice that he can call me to get sympathy, but not to see how his son is doing. He told me that he's going to have a side job soon and then he'll bring me some money for Mikey. I'll believe that when I see it. He was also supposed to give me money when he got his check on the first too, but didn't. I'm not even looking forward to it. And I can't get a child support order because he gets social security. My case worker said it wouldn't even be worth going through the process because they'll just deny it. It doesn't make sense to him either, but whatever. That's just the way things go I guess.
Really though, when you think about it, I'm better off without. That way I don't have to keep bothering him to give me money, keep getting my hopes up that he'll help out...if he gives me money, he does--if he doesn't, he doesn't. I won't be holding my breath though.
Anyway, on a more positive note, I've been reconnecting with a bunch of 'old' friends lately. It's been fun to see what everyone has been up to and where they are in their lives. It's also a little depressing because everyone is happy with where their life it and I'm still here trying to figure out where 'here' is.
I was approved for assistance with child care through the state only to find that their funding is low right now so I'll be on a waiting list. I was really stressing about things, but it actually looks like things are going to work out okay for the time being. Things will just be a little more tight as usual...and I didn't even think that was possible. That's the state for ya!
All right, I guess I'm done rambling for the moment!

*SMILE*