So there really hasn't been much going on that's very eventful.
We celebrated Elijah's birthday, we went to a play...his first. Mikey was really sick--most of the reason for the lack in blogging.
I've just been feeling really down lately. A high point, though is that I met with a really good friend today. I've talked to him here and there, but today we sat together and had a good chat! It totally made my day, and then my family came home. LOL (I got yelled at for keeping the door open for 2 seconds.)
Anyway, I just wanted to let you all know out there in cyberland that yes, I'm still alive...I'm just feeling very consumed by life at the moment.
Hope you all are doing well...I will try to post again soon!
*SMILE*
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
I credit Vickie on this one...thanks!
| The Recipe For Rebekah |
 3 parts Panache 2 parts Glamour 1 part Recklessness Splash of Silliness Finish off with a little umbrella and straw |
Friday, January 11, 2008
Long time coming
So Mikey's been really fussy lately--which means I've been real irritable. (Logically, Fussy baby + No sleep = Irritable mommy...check the math texts, it's in there.)
This past week, I think I got one good night's sleep. All the other night's I've gotten about 5-6 hours and then dealt with a really fussy Mikey. I tried changing him, feeding him, singing to him, rubbing his back...nothing! One night he actually screamed his head off from 3 AM until around 5 AM. (Not sure when exactly, because my wonderful mother stepped in and took him downstairs with her.)
This morning, again at 3 AM. I got him to sleep around 4:15, not too much noise, but moving around a lot...think of me as a bed he's tossing and turning on--for a visual. It was not much fun, but I was so relieved when he went back to sleep.
Then I heard a noise, looked at my phone (for the time) and it was only 5 AM!!! Why even bother going to sleep then?! I brought him into bed with me, and after much squirming, got him asleep again. Then again he awoke at 6...this time very stinky. (Not fun trying to change a messy diaper with a very irritable, very squirmy baby.)
My mom took him while I cleaned up and when I sat next to her I caught a glimpse of his gums. He has a tooth breaking through!!! It was a relief to know that there wasn't something wrong with him and it was just teething (like the angst of teething can be downgraded), but still left an irritable mommy.
Elijah is very excited about turning 4--I don't know if I posted that yet. He keeps asking me--every day--is it my birthday yet??? It's so cute to see his expectation and excitement, but it's getting a little redundant to mommy. His birthday is on the 26th. :) He even whispered to me one morning, 'It's almost my birthday, Mom.' in "contained gitty-ness". So I told him this morning that once he turns four he gets a job--help mama with the dishes. He thought that was so cool! He said, '...now??' LOL Oh how I wish we had time. I would have said, 'Yes, let's get to it!' but we had school/work to get off to. He's growing up so fast and I don't like it.
At school they have a wipe-off board outside the door telling what the class did that day. The other day it said 'Practice writing in our journals.' It makes me proud that he's learning so much, but at the same time it makes me sad...he's not my little baby anymore. :( *sniff* *sniff*
Okay, enough sentimentality. :P
Sidenote....................
Sharon left yesterday for Ohio; Kentucky on Sunday. In an attempt to not incriminate myself, I will leave it at that. :)
*SMILE*
This past week, I think I got one good night's sleep. All the other night's I've gotten about 5-6 hours and then dealt with a really fussy Mikey. I tried changing him, feeding him, singing to him, rubbing his back...nothing! One night he actually screamed his head off from 3 AM until around 5 AM. (Not sure when exactly, because my wonderful mother stepped in and took him downstairs with her.)
This morning, again at 3 AM. I got him to sleep around 4:15, not too much noise, but moving around a lot...think of me as a bed he's tossing and turning on--for a visual. It was not much fun, but I was so relieved when he went back to sleep.
Then I heard a noise, looked at my phone (for the time) and it was only 5 AM!!! Why even bother going to sleep then?! I brought him into bed with me, and after much squirming, got him asleep again. Then again he awoke at 6...this time very stinky. (Not fun trying to change a messy diaper with a very irritable, very squirmy baby.)
My mom took him while I cleaned up and when I sat next to her I caught a glimpse of his gums. He has a tooth breaking through!!! It was a relief to know that there wasn't something wrong with him and it was just teething (like the angst of teething can be downgraded), but still left an irritable mommy.
Elijah is very excited about turning 4--I don't know if I posted that yet. He keeps asking me--every day--is it my birthday yet??? It's so cute to see his expectation and excitement, but it's getting a little redundant to mommy. His birthday is on the 26th. :) He even whispered to me one morning, 'It's almost my birthday, Mom.' in "contained gitty-ness". So I told him this morning that once he turns four he gets a job--help mama with the dishes. He thought that was so cool! He said, '...now??' LOL Oh how I wish we had time. I would have said, 'Yes, let's get to it!' but we had school/work to get off to. He's growing up so fast and I don't like it.
At school they have a wipe-off board outside the door telling what the class did that day. The other day it said 'Practice writing in our journals.' It makes me proud that he's learning so much, but at the same time it makes me sad...he's not my little baby anymore. :( *sniff* *sniff*
Okay, enough sentimentality. :P
Sidenote....................
Sharon left yesterday for Ohio; Kentucky on Sunday. In an attempt to not incriminate myself, I will leave it at that. :)
*SMILE*
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Holiday Update
I just realized that I didn't post an update on the holidays...first Christmas. We has a fabulous time! 
The kids really had fun--even Mikey. My mom bought him a push along walker thing, and he loves it! He gets so frustrated when he is blocked off though. He ran into a laundry basket, couldn't figure out how to get around it, and started screaming! (Typical male driver) :P
Elijah stared on Christmas Eve, looking everywhere for his presents! This was a first and I think it's because he was at Josh's the weekend before Christmas so he had a preview of things to come. We really had a good time!--even with presents that weren't ours! :P Here's one of Eli with his cousin's drum set. 
And this one actually is his. ;) He loves this toy!
I'll post a picture later, but New Year's Eve, I let Eli stay up and we made cupcakes! I didn't think he would make it past 10 PM, but he did...and then didn't want to go to bed afterwards. ;) Luckily for me, it didn't take to long to get him down. I let him sleep in my bed, so I think that helped a lot.
I was so glad that the holidays didn't turn into a disaster or a toddler sized meltdown--which doesn't sound that big, but...believe me, it is! :) Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year...and God bless us every one.
The kids really had fun--even Mikey. My mom bought him a push along walker thing, and he loves it! He gets so frustrated when he is blocked off though. He ran into a laundry basket, couldn't figure out how to get around it, and started screaming! (Typical male driver) :P
Elijah stared on Christmas Eve, looking everywhere for his presents! This was a first and I think it's because he was at Josh's the weekend before Christmas so he had a preview of things to come. We really had a good time!--even with presents that weren't ours! :P Here's one of Eli with his cousin's drum set. 
And this one actually is his. ;) He loves this toy!
I'll post a picture later, but New Year's Eve, I let Eli stay up and we made cupcakes! I didn't think he would make it past 10 PM, but he did...and then didn't want to go to bed afterwards. ;) Luckily for me, it didn't take to long to get him down. I let him sleep in my bed, so I think that helped a lot.
I was so glad that the holidays didn't turn into a disaster or a toddler sized meltdown--which doesn't sound that big, but...believe me, it is! :) Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year...and God bless us every one.
Wednesday, January 2, 2008
Happy Freakin' New Year!!
First I apologize if that offended you...
There has seriously got to be a better way for this government to be run as it's being run now. I really don't have much hope in our system as it stands right now. I am in the unfortunate position to have to rely on the state to survive--my boys and I receive government health care through medicaid (or medicare, I can never remember which), I receive Food Stamps and WIC, I qualify for Child Care Assistance (though still have not heard back from them), I'm receiving a big chunk of Financial Aid for college, and I receive child support from Elijah's dad (through garnished wages).
Now the idea of all of these programs is GREAT! But the actuality of them is crap! You have to go through so much red tape, dot your I's cross your T's and then it goes through a computer and it spits out an answer. When I was fired from my job over the summer, I couldn't receive unemployment because I received too much in child support--under 100$ a week. How am I supposed to support my family--a pregnant me, a toddler--on less than 100$ a week??? Besides, that child support is from Josh to support Elijah...not me and my new family! (I don't include Michael in that equation because his check barely paid for him while he was living on his own...) And when I inquired about it, they said "I don't know, that's what the computer told me." I thought computers were supposed to be an aid to us, not run our lives?!
So anyway, the insurance covers a lot, which I'm grateful for, but you get the bottom of the barrel when it comes to doctors, care, and respect. I'm sorry I'm in the position I'm in and you're in the position you're in, but does that really give you the right to treat me like *#%!$ ? Financial Aid is, so far, a big help...I'm waiting for the day they tell me something was wrong with the application or rules changed or something or I did something wrong and they revoke that! Although, they didn't inform me that the aid would cover parking fees for the college parking garage. I did find out A DAY PAST THE DEADLINE about it and they denied my request! (If you would have informed me about it, I would've already applied!)
I have no complaints really about the Food Stamps or WIC...I'm thankful for them. (I'm thankful for all of it really, but they just screw you over and you're supposed to sit back and take it and I'm SICK OF IT!) WIC isn't bad except the Nazi Acme lady I ran into.
I applied for Child Care Assistance...tuition is more than I make, and if it weren't for my parents taking me back in, we'd be in a shelter right now...I keep hearing that they don't know when the monies will come in and that they're waiting on the computer to tell them something too! So for now, I keep hoping and praying that somehow I'll have enough money to pay their daycare, buy diapers, formula, food, clothes, etc... I would really like to be able to take my kids to these agencies and have them tell my kids why they can't have certain things or why we can't go places like their friends do. (And that's another thing...there are so many different people, case numbers, buildings I have to go to, remember, deal with. It's insane!!) I really don't know how people work the system like they do...if they would screen them as strictly as they do me, maybe things might be a little less insane!
Now to the real reason of this post...the Child Support. It's garnished from his wages and that's fine...I really don't think he'd pay if it wasn't--well except for the threat of jail-time if he didn't pay. Anyway, recently I've been having trouble with the money coming in. I wouldn't be complaining except twice now I've been overdrawn on my bank account due to this incompetency! (Let me case worker not be paid on time and see how pleasant she is then! I've never liked her from the start--she's just about ignorant.)
So I can g
o online and check the status of my Child Support account. I checked it and it said due no later than December 28th. NOW that the shoe is on the other foot, they want to negate the relevancy of the computer...real nice! She tells me it goes every two weeks from the last check paid...uh, I don't think so. If that's the case, why would people pay regularly. The government is the only system I've EVER seen that happen in. If my bills aren't paid, they want their money...YESTERDAY! Let me start charging a late fee for every time I don't receive my Child Support on time. Then they tell me, since there were two holidays in between to give it time...to wait now until Friday when last time she told me wait until Wednesday. And not to call because how can she do her job if I'm calling her? Uhh, because there are 8 hours in your work day, I'd be taking up 5 minutes getting an update.
God bless America ???
On a happier note though, Michael is in Philly and says I won't hear from him anymore. (I'm not holding my breath on that one though...)
There has seriously got to be a better way for this government to be run as it's being run now. I really don't have much hope in our system as it stands right now. I am in the unfortunate position to have to rely on the state to survive--my boys and I receive government health care through medicaid (or medicare, I can never remember which), I receive Food Stamps and WIC, I qualify for Child Care Assistance (though still have not heard back from them), I'm receiving a big chunk of Financial Aid for college, and I receive child support from Elijah's dad (through garnished wages).
Now the idea of all of these programs is GREAT! But the actuality of them is crap! You have to go through so much red tape, dot your I's cross your T's and then it goes through a computer and it spits out an answer. When I was fired from my job over the summer, I couldn't receive unemployment because I received too much in child support--under 100$ a week. How am I supposed to support my family--a pregnant me, a toddler--on less than 100$ a week??? Besides, that child support is from Josh to support Elijah...not me and my new family! (I don't include Michael in that equation because his check barely paid for him while he was living on his own...) And when I inquired about it, they said "I don't know, that's what the computer told me." I thought computers were supposed to be an aid to us, not run our lives?!
So anyway, the insurance covers a lot, which I'm grateful for, but you get the bottom of the barrel when it comes to doctors, care, and respect. I'm sorry I'm in the position I'm in and you're in the position you're in, but does that really give you the right to treat me like *#%!$ ? Financial Aid is, so far, a big help...I'm waiting for the day they tell me something was wrong with the application or rules changed or something or I did something wrong and they revoke that! Although, they didn't inform me that the aid would cover parking fees for the college parking garage. I did find out A DAY PAST THE DEADLINE about it and they denied my request! (If you would have informed me about it, I would've already applied!)
I have no complaints really about the Food Stamps or WIC...I'm thankful for them. (I'm thankful for all of it really, but they just screw you over and you're supposed to sit back and take it and I'm SICK OF IT!) WIC isn't bad except the Nazi Acme lady I ran into.
I applied for Child Care Assistance...tuition is more than I make, and if it weren't for my parents taking me back in, we'd be in a shelter right now...I keep hearing that they don't know when the monies will come in and that they're waiting on the computer to tell them something too! So for now, I keep hoping and praying that somehow I'll have enough money to pay their daycare, buy diapers, formula, food, clothes, etc... I would really like to be able to take my kids to these agencies and have them tell my kids why they can't have certain things or why we can't go places like their friends do. (And that's another thing...there are so many different people, case numbers, buildings I have to go to, remember, deal with. It's insane!!) I really don't know how people work the system like they do...if they would screen them as strictly as they do me, maybe things might be a little less insane!
Now to the real reason of this post...the Child Support. It's garnished from his wages and that's fine...I really don't think he'd pay if it wasn't--well except for the threat of jail-time if he didn't pay. Anyway, recently I've been having trouble with the money coming in. I wouldn't be complaining except twice now I've been overdrawn on my bank account due to this incompetency! (Let me case worker not be paid on time and see how pleasant she is then! I've never liked her from the start--she's just about ignorant.)
So I can g
o online and check the status of my Child Support account. I checked it and it said due no later than December 28th. NOW that the shoe is on the other foot, they want to negate the relevancy of the computer...real nice! She tells me it goes every two weeks from the last check paid...uh, I don't think so. If that's the case, why would people pay regularly. The government is the only system I've EVER seen that happen in. If my bills aren't paid, they want their money...YESTERDAY! Let me start charging a late fee for every time I don't receive my Child Support on time. Then they tell me, since there were two holidays in between to give it time...to wait now until Friday when last time she told me wait until Wednesday. And not to call because how can she do her job if I'm calling her? Uhh, because there are 8 hours in your work day, I'd be taking up 5 minutes getting an update.God bless America ???
On a happier note though, Michael is in Philly and says I won't hear from him anymore. (I'm not holding my breath on that one though...)
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