For Vickie!

I just wanted to let you all know--and Vickie--that I am still in the land of the living. I know it's been a while since my last post. Things have just been so crazy around here that I haven't had a chance to blog.
Tomorrow is a big day...the last day of my first full week at work; pay day; Elijah's last day at VBS, closing program. Saturday I'm hoping to get together with some friends...so depending on how that day goes, I may be updating afterwards. If not, I should be definitely updating Sunday. (I've always been told don't count your chickens before they hatch, so I hope I'm not eating my words come Monday.)
I hope you all have a great weekend!
*SMILE*

Oh Happy Day!

So today was a success...I was so nervous about Mikey going back to daycare. I've actually been dreading it the past couple days.
I dropped him off and he wasn't too pleased. But his teacher (Miss Michael--same birthday as Mikey too!) assured me things would be fine and that I could call later in the day to check up on him. During my orientation, we got 3 breaks...2-15 minute and 1-hour for lunch. I was going to call at the first 15 minute break, but opted out. I couldn't not call at lunch time, I was going crazy. LOL
I forget who I got a hold of, but they told me that he was having a good day and ate lunch well and was now napping. When I picked him up at the end of the day, I was told he had a fabulous first day and one of his teachers even said she had never seen a baby have such a wonderful first day! :) I was so happy and relieved to hear that!
As far as the job goes...I have never been more bored in my life! That's an overstatement but I say that for dramatic effect. ;) It was all right as far as orientations go, but it just D-R-A-G-G-E-D on! I was so glad when the day was over. Eight hours is just too much to sit through lectures. And I have 9 more days to go! Well, I guess 6 because we have 2 on-site days and then the last day is hands-on. I just want to get to work! I'm really hoping that there's something permanent available so I don't have to do the whole job search again in 2 months. ;)
Well, it's getting late and I'm seeing double. LOL I guess that's my cue to go to bed! :)
*SMILE*

"...one is silver and the other's gold"

So I get real lazy when it comes to calling people sometimes, even friends. And it's just gotten worse lately...almost like I isolate myself. Anyway, I finally called one of my friends tonight that I haven't talked to in a while. It gets easier to not call people and make excuses sometimes than it does to call them. I know that sounds stupid, but whatever. I've never been a normal person, deal with it! ;) Let me just tell you it was so good to talk and catch up. I always try to make it a point to keep up with keeping in touch. Sometimes I do, but sometimes I don't...and when I do, fall back into the same patterns of not. I can be a very lazy friend and LOVE my friends for not holding that against me! :D
And I think that's the end of this blog as I hear Mikey in the other room crying...at 11:00 PM. What's up with that?! LOL
Well, until next time.

Looking Back...

Okay, so I know the last one was a long one...so I'll try to keep this one short, not to mention I'm exhausted!
I found myself really bored and looking at old pages. I mostly just check email, keep up with online banking or go to "social network" sites (ie, MySpace and Facebook). I also like to keep up with my friends through their blogs and find myself, ironically, frustrated by the lack of upkeep. I know, people get busy...myself being my own example of this.
Anyway, I've been reminiscing a lot lately. Old friends I lost touch with, old friends I still talk to, exes I haven't heard from in years, and exes that have recently re-surfaced. Anyway, as the title states, looking back I wonder what life would be like if things turned out differently.
There was one potential that I didn't give a chance, and lately he's been on my mind--and I have no idea why! I, on Facebook, sent a message to a past hopeful...anonymously...and he found out! The thing is, I've always considered him the one that got away. Our paths crossed many times throughout the past 10 years after we first met. (Some of you may know to whom I'm referring.) Anyway, I feel awkward even messaging or emailing him anymore. He's in town for the next couple weeks and I'm contemplating doing such. *Wish me luck!*
And some of my exes I wonder...WHAT in the world was I thinking?! I know everything happens for a reason, but why is it that sometimes we don't know that reason? I mean, if it's happening for a reason, shouldn't we be privy to this reason? Maybe it's just me over-analyzing again...who knows! And maybe I don't know now, but it will become clear later down the line.
Well anyway...thanks for listening. Sorry, I know you could have spent the past 5-ish minutes of your life doing something more constructive, and I can never give you this lost time back...but please keep reading! I enjoy hearing comments or knowing that you are following along.
Much love....
Oh yeah...Happy 4th of July!!!

Long Overdue

Okay, okay...so I've been asked for an update and—I'll admit—it's MUCH needed!What have I been up to these past few months? Well, I did it again. I thought I met “the man of my dreams”. He sure was a charmer, I'll give him that. We started talking in February after he contacted me online. I was real hesitant at first, but didn't know why...hindsight is definitely 20/20!
Long story short, he turned out to be psycho. I ended up losing my job, lots of money—I didn't really have to lose—and almost my car...not to mention respect from friends and family as well as my own. Luckily though, I did not lose their love!
Since then, I've been home (which is still at my parents) trying to rebuild my life. I got a job which I will start this Monday at a school for kids and adults with special needs. I'm SOOOOOOOO looking forward to it! I can't wait. I'm actually a little disappointed because I was supposed to start two Fridays ago. I got everything in order though, am finishing up paperwork tomorrow, and am just waiting for Monday to come...I even forgot that it's the 4^th of July on Friday.
I had the boys in a daycare that I thought I was satisfied with...until about a month or so ago. They've always called for silly reasons when it came to Mikey. Mostly it's due to his teething symptoms: tugging at his ears; drooling; cranky; and my favorite (yeah right)...ahem, uncontrollable BMs. Well this time they had gone too far. They told me that I couldn't bring him back until I had him checked out by the doctor and brought back a doctor's note saying he was okay.

I refused to take him, because I knew he was teething and the only “symptom” he had was the BM. If he was pooping all day with no end in sight...okay, maybe that's exaggerating. If he had more that one, or other symptoms, I could see their concern. But he had one crazy poop...and that was it. That's like going to the doctor and saying I know I ate something I shouldn't have eaten, because every time I eat it my stomach acts up. Well, my stomach is now going crazy. Am I sick??? NOOOO, moron! If you want to eat it, eat it but just know that you're going to have indigestion.
He's teething! I'm not wasting the doctor's time or mine...not to mention toting a teething, miserable tot along...just to get a note saying so. I called and asked if they could fax a letter saying so, but stupidly called the school after that. They told me he had to be seen by the doctor...period!
So I just didn't take him to the doctor, his teeth came through, and we've been spending our days together since then. I don't know how people are Stay-at-Homes and don't go crazy...I really don't. I mean don't get me wrong, I love my boys...but they would drive me MAD! :D
I was trying to get a daycare where both of them could go, and that I was satisfied with...as well as pleasing to my bank account. Well, it's down to the wire, but I DID IT!! It is the cheapest I've found, with THE best program. It's a flat rate for each kid, no matter the age; 10% discount for each kid, 10% discount for paying 7 days in advance. Sweet deal! The older kids get to go on trips, they're taught Spanish, have computer classes...they all have play time—twice at the inside playroom and twice at the outside playground. Lunch is provided and includes all of the toddler staples...mac n cheese, PB n J, hot dogs, pizza, grilled cheese, chicken nuggets, and one I'm forgetting. :P And the owner seems super cool...not at all uppity about being the owner, ya know?
Mikey will start on Monday when I start work, but Elijah starts the week after that. The reason being that he's on vacation since this past Monday until next Sunday—not this coming—with his dad in Indiana. :( It's only been 3 days and I'm missing him like CRAZY!!!! :'( He checked it out last Friday and loves it though, so that's a plus! His teacher at the old daycare is going to miss him though. She was so sad when I told her he wouldn't be coming back after vacation.
She was an awesome teacher! I hope she is the beginning of many. I can't believe he'll be going to school soon! With this program he'll be in Pre-K. It's in their school building. Oh yeah, I didn't tell you. Not only is it a daycare, but they have another building for their academy. It goes up to 10^th grade right now, but they're working towards 12^th. I am totally amazed by the program, if you couldn't tell. ;)
The Friday before, we celebrated Elijah's graduation from the Preschool program. He was decked out in his cap and received a diploma...it was so cute! (No I didn't cry, but I came close.) I'm so proud of my little man!!

Well, I guess that's more than enough for one update. I promise to try and keep this thing updated better than I have been. I just haven't been in the mood for much of anything these days with everything that I've gone through and all. I hope you all are doing well.

*SMILE*

PS...Mikey is a walker now! :D